In typical Lewis fashion, he says so much with so few words. This last sentence, “I must be an agent as well as a patient”, is worthy of a closer look.
When Jesus was in the Garden of Gethsemane and he prayed, “Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.” he wasn’t at odds with the Father’s will. No, he simply knew that there was suffering coming that would be excruciating. Jesus was fully God, but also fully man, and what was coming would be extraordinarily intense suffering.
Herein lies the combination Lewis speaks of ‘patient and the agent’. There are some things we pray God would help us endure, and other things we ask God’s help in initiating as an agent of His love in the world. Here Jesus in His perfection is doing both.
We can pray the prayer, “Thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven” in all things along with Jesus. When circumstances are hard we are a ‘patient’ needing God’s sustainable touch. In a fallen world where death, disease, and suffering are all around us, God’s will is not thwarted, He can use these things to move us closer to Him if we allow it.
In another Lewis’ book, “The Problem of Pain”, he famously says: